Sitting here nothin but a shell of what I once was,lost hopes and shattered dreams accompany a broken heart.Daily I pray but god wont send me to my grave.It's like im paying a price but for what I dont know. I just know Im in endless pain and forever Ill be alone.
Locked away to keep people from seeing the tears that flow from my eyes,disconnected from all my homies I stay locked in my room and when I have to come out I wear that false smile,dont want everyone around me to know Im really dying inside.
So I know I'ma forever be alone,no special someone to share a love with no one to hold on them dark nights sending chills so cold they cut through the bone.
I was willing to take that chance to make it work,to give it my all like I've done before,but she didn't want to,said she cant love me like she did once before,the love of my life,my perfect soulmate,she knows me like the back of her hand,I thought I knew her the same. But now I sit here all alone.I know they say big boys don't cry but don't for once believe that lie,cause even if you don't see it we cry on the inside,its a pain nobody should ever know,like your hearts being crushed and your time is running out.
I just wish things were different,but I guess all it is in the end is just a wish,cant change the fact. I'ma be alone till the day I die,someone just kill me now dont worry I'll thank you before I die.
