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LUNATIK Respect Level Rank Member 409 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote about 1 year ago Fuckin shit up like its habit,steppin on peoples emotions to me is just a habit. Who said I actually care whether or not you love me? Who said I actually give a shit what your feeling feel like? Nobody asked how mine felt,you stomped all over em and now you walkin round wit ya nose in the air,time for that nose to get brought closer to earth. Wakin up reachin for her when she aint there,holdin back my tears wont let myself cry.I dont know why I wont let myself cry,tear ducts done dried up,cried my last tear but yet when I think of life without her my eyes well up,feeling the pain of being alone and without her brings back the same tears.It aint pride that keeps me from crying,its knowing that I caused this,I caused my being alone. So what do I do to free this pain? Many may ask but many just wont know,dreams turn into nightmares. Got me wakin up in cold sweats shivering from the pain. Without her life hurts so much,wheres the rest of me? Why is it I can go from cold as ice and emotionless n painless to so full of warmth n love for her? What door did she unlock that brought out this side of me? I dont know but at times I wish I knew how to lock it again,tired of feeling so much pain,tired of feeling so incomplete. Feelin so leaves me feelin so imcompetint,like such a dummy for not knowin why I feel so. Missing her is like breathing anymore,yearning for her to be in my arms every moment of every day.To provide and take care of her,to have a family with her. To have those days in the park while we watch the children play,having those family moments that make life so fulfilling and joyus. So I focus on what it is I really want,to have her n our family together as one,to finally feel complete.Until then im livin this life totally incomplete. the lunatik formerly known as pugzly has returned to reclaim my reign
Mz3v1lx3 Respect Level Rank Member 432 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote about 1 year ago DAMN ... UMMM .... IM SPEECHLESS .:M¡ MºM §ª¥§ ¡ ¢ªN R€ª¢H TH€ §K¥ ¡F ¡ TR¡€D BUT WH¥ Dº€§ §H€ ¢R¥ WH€N ¡M H¡GH TR¥¡N 2 F£¥?.: ** .:"Give me strength 2 resist the wild life i desire. Help me escape temptation & the fire. Please help my family whose eyes silently plead 4 me not 2 do wrong & pray 4 me. God bless our mothers who cry every night, worrying we'll be killed my someone in a fight".: Tired of trying So sick of crying Yeah, I’m smiling But inside I’m dying ** “LIFE THROUGH MY EYEZ DIDN’T KNOW IT BE SO ROUGH. I DON’T NEED DRUGS TO ALUSINATE ALL I NEED IS MY MENTE STRAIGHT. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE THAT I HATE”
LUNATIK Respect Level Rank Member 409 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote about 1 year ago i aint lost my touch the lunatik formerly known as pugzly has returned to reclaim my reign
Mz3v1lx3 Respect Level Rank Member 432 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote about 1 year ago Quoting LUNATIK on 25 January, 2011, 12:00PM PST i aint lost my touch nah u havent .:M¡ MºM §ª¥§ ¡ ¢ªN R€ª¢H TH€ §K¥ ¡F ¡ TR¡€D BUT WH¥ Dº€§ §H€ ¢R¥ WH€N ¡M H¡GH TR¥¡N 2 F£¥?.: ** .:"Give me strength 2 resist the wild life i desire. Help me escape temptation & the fire. Please help my family whose eyes silently plead 4 me not 2 do wrong & pray 4 me. God bless our mothers who cry every night, worrying we'll be killed my someone in a fight".: Tired of trying So sick of crying Yeah, I’m smiling But inside I’m dying ** “LIFE THROUGH MY EYEZ DIDN’T KNOW IT BE SO ROUGH. I DON’T NEED DRUGS TO ALUSINATE ALL I NEED IS MY MENTE STRAIGHT. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE THAT I HATE”
LUNATIK Respect Level Rank Member 409 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote about 1 year ago and that was just lightly pissed off me,my raging side well i cant post on here my lil sis will have a fit if i do the lunatik formerly known as pugzly has returned to reclaim my reign
Mz3v1lx3 Respect Level Rank Member 432 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote 11 months ago AWWW BUT U CAN ALWAYS SEND THEM TO ME =) LOL .:M¡ MºM §ª¥§ ¡ ¢ªN R€ª¢H TH€ §K¥ ¡F ¡ TR¡€D BUT WH¥ Dº€§ §H€ ¢R¥ WH€N ¡M H¡GH TR¥¡N 2 F£¥?.: ** .:"Give me strength 2 resist the wild life i desire. Help me escape temptation & the fire. Please help my family whose eyes silently plead 4 me not 2 do wrong & pray 4 me. God bless our mothers who cry every night, worrying we'll be killed my someone in a fight".: Tired of trying So sick of crying Yeah, I’m smiling But inside I’m dying ** “LIFE THROUGH MY EYEZ DIDN’T KNOW IT BE SO ROUGH. I DON’T NEED DRUGS TO ALUSINATE ALL I NEED IS MY MENTE STRAIGHT. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE THAT I HATE”
LUNATIK Respect Level Rank Member 409 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote 11 months ago Quoting Mz3v1lx3 on 28 February, 2011, 01:08AM PST AWWW BUT U CAN ALWAYS SEND THEM TO ME =) LOL i know the lunatik formerly known as pugzly has returned to reclaim my reign
Mz3v1lx3 Respect Level Rank Member 432 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote 11 months ago Quoting LUNATIK on 05 March, 2011, 03:02PM PST Quoting Mz3v1lx3 on 28 February, 2011, 01:08AM PST AWWW BUT U CAN ALWAYS SEND THEM TO ME =) LOL i know .:M¡ MºM §ª¥§ ¡ ¢ªN R€ª¢H TH€ §K¥ ¡F ¡ TR¡€D BUT WH¥ Dº€§ §H€ ¢R¥ WH€N ¡M H¡GH TR¥¡N 2 F£¥?.: ** .:"Give me strength 2 resist the wild life i desire. Help me escape temptation & the fire. Please help my family whose eyes silently plead 4 me not 2 do wrong & pray 4 me. God bless our mothers who cry every night, worrying we'll be killed my someone in a fight".: Tired of trying So sick of crying Yeah, I’m smiling But inside I’m dying ** “LIFE THROUGH MY EYEZ DIDN’T KNOW IT BE SO ROUGH. I DON’T NEED DRUGS TO ALUSINATE ALL I NEED IS MY MENTE STRAIGHT. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE THAT I HATE”
LUNATIK Respect Level Rank Member 409 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote 10 months ago aye mami im workin on a new one ima have to work with you on,but you gonna have to answer the phone first ;) the lunatik formerly known as pugzly has returned to reclaim my reign
Mz3v1lx3 Respect Level Rank Member 432 posts Please Login or Join to View Mood	Wrote 10 months ago Quoting LUNATIK on 01 April, 2011, 12:03PM PDT aye mami im workin on a new one ima have to work with you on,but you gonna have to answer the phone first ;) Aight ... and ill try to answer .:M¡ MºM §ª¥§ ¡ ¢ªN R€ª¢H TH€ §K¥ ¡F ¡ TR¡€D BUT WH¥ Dº€§ §H€ ¢R¥ WH€N ¡M H¡GH TR¥¡N 2 F£¥?.: ** .:"Give me strength 2 resist the wild life i desire. Help me escape temptation & the fire. Please help my family whose eyes silently plead 4 me not 2 do wrong & pray 4 me. God bless our mothers who cry every night, worrying we'll be killed my someone in a fight".: Tired of trying So sick of crying Yeah, I’m smiling But inside I’m dying ** “LIFE THROUGH MY EYEZ DIDN’T KNOW IT BE SO ROUGH. I DON’T NEED DRUGS TO ALUSINATE ALL I NEED IS MY MENTE STRAIGHT. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE THAT I HATE”

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Fuckin shit up like its habit,steppin on peoples emotions to me is just a habit.
Who said I actually care whether or not you love me? Who said I actually give a shit what your feeling feel like? Nobody asked how mine felt,you stomped all over em and now you walkin round wit ya nose in the air,time for that nose to get brought closer to earth.
Wakin up reachin for her when she aint there,holdin back my tears wont let myself cry.I dont know why I wont let myself cry,tear ducts done dried up,cried my last tear but yet when I think of life without her my eyes well up,feeling the pain of being alone and without her brings back the same tears.It aint pride that keeps me from crying,its knowing that I caused this,I caused my being alone.
So what do I do to free this pain? Many may ask but many just wont know,dreams turn into nightmares. Got me wakin up in cold sweats shivering from the pain. Without her life hurts so much,wheres the rest of me? Why is it I can go from cold as ice and emotionless n painless to so full of warmth n love for her? What door did she unlock that brought out this side of me? I dont know but at times I wish I knew how to lock it again,tired of feeling so much pain,tired of feeling so incomplete. Feelin so leaves me feelin so imcompetint,like such a dummy for not knowin why I feel so.
Missing her is like breathing anymore,yearning for her to be in my arms every moment of every day.To provide and take care of her,to have a family with her. To have those days in the park while we watch the children play,having those family moments that make life so fulfilling and joyus.
So I focus on what it is I really want,to have her n our family together as one,to finally feel complete.Until then im livin this life totally incomplete.

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DAMN ... UMMM .... IM SPEECHLESS

.:M¡ MºM §ª¥§ ¡ ¢ªN R€ª¢H TH€ §K¥ ¡F ¡ TR¡€D BUT WH¥ Dº€§ §H€ ¢R¥ WH€N ¡M H¡GH TR¥¡N 2 F£¥?.:
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.:"Give me strength 2 resist the wild life i desire. Help me escape temptation & the fire. Please help my family whose eyes silently plead 4 me not 2 do wrong & pray 4 me. God bless our mothers who cry every night, worrying we'll be killed my someone in a fight".:
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Tired of trying
So sick of crying
Yeah, I’m smiling
But inside I’m dying
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“LIFE THROUGH MY EYEZ DIDN’T KNOW IT BE SO ROUGH. I DON’T NEED DRUGS TO ALUSINATE ALL I NEED IS MY MENTE STRAIGHT. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS FUCKED UP LIFE THAT I HATE”