When I was small I always dreamt of having a perfect life with no problems & no sadness nothing but happiness & not having to turn my back every second. Damn! Those are just in movies, in the real world its hard to live in, specially when your surrounded with nothing but bad people. I always thought that I wouldn’t be like my 2 older brothers, I would say to my jefita that I wouldn’t make her sad or cry for fucking up like they did. But I didn’t know. I was innocent. Once I started roaming the streets I started realizing a lot of things. I started getting flashbacks of what my brothers will tell me & taught me. In the real world you have to survive. You never know what can happen. Never trust no one. Nobody has real friends, there nothing but backstabbers. You cant even trust your own shadow. I never thought all this was actually gonna be true. Till it all started, when I started claiming my Sur 13, that day Fuck!! I’ll never forget. I didn’t know that day was gonna change my whole life. I guess I broke the promise I made to mi jefita & I quote “ I’ll never be like them & I’m never making you cry & worry about me”. All it took was 13 seconds to forget. Damn!! I made her suffer more & worst that anybody would have. I didn’t give a fuck. I was living my crazy life. Drinking, Smoking Weed, Party & hanging around with the homies. That was my life matter fact that was me lving the kraz life, getting arrested for dumb shit, fighting, causing chaos. That was my life, I would come home & leave again all that was making mi jefita suffer more & more. I got to the point where my mom’s law was nothing but a rule. I constantly had to hide from the law, from my enemies, I had to watch my back. I had to keep myself alive everyday. That I was roaming the streets. I saw a lot of my closets homies died. I have homies doing time for doing what we do best. I knew getting into all this was gonna be hard I never thought that after that I had to be scared of my own shadow. My head playing tricks that I had never thought before. Looking at my family suffer & make them worry when I stepped a foot out the door thinking ill never come back. My mom always told that the worst thing that my brothers & I would ever do was getting a call at 3am or having a pig show up the door & taking her to identify a body. I ain’t gonna lie. I’m still in this I’ll always be & never be ashamed of what I am. Fuck no! never that. I learned from all this. I learned that life is precious & no matter what, I thank god that I’m still here in this fucked & wicked world. Yeah, I’m still living my crazy life. But I’m on the down low, planning to keep myself like this till they got shit with me or hurt someone I truly love. So for now imma keep rolling up my blunts & pounding on my King Cobras raising my middle finger up high & not giving a fuck. Just remember my wickedness is just kicking back, if you want war its ready for it. A hit of that blunt for all the homies & my brother & mi jefito doing time, chugging the King Cobra to those who are still here in this world. A spill on the floor for the homies that have passed away & for the lost of my love ones. I’m still living my crazy life & ill never stop living it. Fuck everyone that don’t like it. SouthxSide 13 Rifa!!!! Can’t fuck with the best. I live in a city of krimez. My hood till the day I fucken die, “Santa Ana”
Free:
Mi Jefito, Big Chino, Lil Minor, Feur, Zombie, Silent … FUCK THE LAW!!!
R.I.P:
Frosty, Sleepy, Smokey, Lil One, Tio Juan, Flaco … MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE.
By: Esa Evil 2.9.10
